Don't love me


Don't love me, hate me,despise me,leave me alone,
Don't touch me or take me,just leave me at home,
All I feel is the dome,i'm numb,I feel I'm dead,
So I deal with and hone,but I'm stunned,no feelings in head.

They said i was a difficult child,raising difficulties,
Like,"Look at this kid he sulks right?",adults tried to kick and sculpt me,
But no beating or abuse could make up for any of it,
I feel what's the use,I now rap what not many would spit,
But many would fit me into a category so I changed that,
Not a fucked up kid,me,think you had the story but i took the game back,
It's not the same facts,we all had tough times right?
If I could take the frame back,through these buzzed rhymes write,
Could I stop my father,maybe teach my mother what's right?
I'm lost,I'd rather be crazy,see I smother all life,
A brother's all right,atleast that's what he tells the people,
He suffers all night,the beast inside make the terrors of hell so feeble,
He felt the steeple he stands on matters more than the pain inside,
Who'll cry when this man's gone?This rapper flows,but it's insane,he flys,
Only to fall so hard,but can never show pain,
The man you call a bard,but trapped on his own soul train,
Can't control game,the clown uses make up and jokes,
To try and not expose pain,while the junkie takes up on dope.

Don't love me, hate me,despise me,leave me alone,
Don't touch me or take me,just leave me at home,
All I feel is the dome,i'm numb,I feel I'm dead,
So I deal with and hone,but I'm stunned,no feelings in head.

I don't know love but hate is what I've always lived with,
It seems so fucked but wait,you can go ahead and call this shit sick,
But the known devil is better than the unknown Lord they say,
So on no level or weather can I even try and stall their play,
This is my role and I play it par excellence,
Even when spiiting my soul admits what this bar confesses hence,
I don't mess with sense,this is not a logical thing,
All The stress this kid vents,u know I'm lost in the swing,
All i got is this thing,you call it music,
But it's the cost of the ring,you see all this new shit?
I'm married to the rhyme,'coz rhythm saved my life,
All i carry in my mind,every thing I braved I write,
I pretend it's ok so people won't show fake concern,
Go to my friends?Shit,no way!All the shit I take I learn,
In the hate I burn,maybe even reject the lil' love i get,
The bitterness I never waste,I earn,till I cease to even love myself,
All that exists is the fact of who I am,nobody cares but me,
What I spit in the raps,try understand,this is a rare bust,see,
I never say this aloud,and there's a reason for that,
Not 'coz A-List is proud,but 'coz i may laugh but inside I'm bleeding in fact.

Don't love me, hate me,despise me,leave me alone,
Don't touch me or take me,just leave me at home,
All I feel is the dome,i'm numb,I feel I'm dead,
So I deal with and hone,but I'm stunned,no feelings in head.

Ok Mr. Therapist,should I lie down on the couch and speak?
I bet you never miss,you can tell me just what my mouth will speak,
"Well son,let me see,your father abused you and you were mentally disturbed,
But when hell's done,you grow larger,you do hip hop,try and vent what you heard,
Have issues with love,higher comfort level with hate,
So as you spit through the thugs,more hatred than even the devil could take,
"WRONG!Mr. Doctor,I'm not a textbook case you study,
I'm strong,I opt for the next look,you're fazed,you're cruddy,
Now got a knife on your neck,how about a second opinion man?
Lived my whole life for espect,now I done wrecked a million plans,
I'm not suicidal,I just wonder if death is easy,
Hey what if i pull this rifle?Bet you never ever felt this queasy!
"But son,relax,we can sit down and talk it out!"
Don't be dumb,I'm taxed,there's nothing to talk about!
So give me a pill and I'm out of this shit!
I spit free,I'm ill,don't make me shout at this bitch!
"But son,there's nobody there!We're the only ones!"
I'm just stunned,nobody cares!She won't leave me alone,she comes!
"But who is she?Would you like some water,have you ate?"
Shut the fuck up!Can't you see she's the daughter of all the hate,
She's come to take me,but I will get you bitch!
That's what the downside of hate be,it just won't let you live.